fantasy and reality

It might sounds insane but I'm all over the heels for you. I can't say much but you make me speechless every time. Yet, you seems to know what is on my mind every time. It's like we are intertwined in destiny. You have that aura, that energy, that sparks which brings unicorns, love, rainbows to my life.  I'm internally grateful that I met you first. You were this cute little girl I met years ago. The smiles, the eyes and the cheekbones you have are fascinating. Now, you are the lady the I would want to spend my rest of life with. Together we grow,  Together we share, Together we speaks. So, Jenny Lou Peterson, will you be my lawful wedded wife?

Hallways are detrimental. They basically just tear my life around. I remembered that hallways in high school is a great place to run free and yet, most dangerous place of them all. I was alert to the surrounding for fear that I might face him. Thus sums up my teen life. Running away from those stuffs. I didn't even have the gut to face them. I was terrible at that. Now I'm too, I guess. I am still fighting my way out. I'm always afraid of eye contacts, especially to boys.  To this day, I'm much better now. I could still face them without acknowledge that they know the old me. That I was being very stupid. Silly. Fool. Naive. Also, eye contacts drive my imagination-  wild .  

It hurts tho. There will be always a person to ruin someone's life. And they are called, attention seekers.

I'm afraid. Really afraid that this is becoming a real thing. I'm starting to think that I feel them because of the loneliness. If it bounds to be true, it's better to be clear once and for all. But, probably this could be the real thing. OH FOR GOD SAKE, JANE. MAKE UP YOUR FUCKING MIND. I'm always having those thoughts. URGHHHH. Soooooo, do I or I'm not?