fantasy and reality

What am I today, is what the paths I've walked on.

It might sounds a bit exaggerating, I've fallen in love with you.  You made me fallen over and over again. Do you know why? It was your smile, your eyes, your confused expression.  They tend to make me happier as ever I could be. I couldn't imagine any more than this. I am fortunate enough, to have you. All of that is a past, of course.  I'm just doing what I need, to point out that there's a love, a hope, and a joy.  I finished that chapter and it's time to move on. Yet, I found myself mesmerized with the walks you had. All that of course just loneliness of all these years. Never have I to be now, because there's someone else. A new chapter, a new path, a new hope and perhaps, a one true love. truly and lovely, jane.

Keep living the dream. Love is what always carries us away from things we're supposed to do. It tends to annoy us with those silly and wishful thoughts. It really cramps up our nerves and makes the pace of heart faster and faster. I mean it, it's very maddening. I was succumbed and I felt it. It distracted me the most and sometimes it pains me to even think about it. I thought, this is how it feels like. I was happy, to finally taste the flavor of sweetness but I didn't know it was sour and bitter at the end. I tried stopping and ending the sentiment that I felt over the years. Why?  It was hurtful and brought nothing but a good old death blow on my heart. I kept and kept avoiding them and thought they will just whirlwind into bottom of the planet. Boy, I was wrong. It kept giving me the tingle and spasm whenever I saw you. Fuck you, seriously, for having no right to do all those things. I went all over the heels for you. Probably, I still do now but I do not inte...